Shopaholic: beauty goes-boredom remains

Wed, 13 May 2009 03:46:05 GMT

spent two days in wildwood.
took another 20 out of the bank.
14 dollars on gas.
to me, thats not too bad.

Mon, 11 May 2009 03:50:36 GMT

The total expenses for today:

64.42

the total of food that i bought at Giant was 44.42. and i got 20 dollars cash back so i can be more watchful with my fast food purchases for the week.

two small trips to McDonalds and that was it.
roughly 14.00 left of that cash.

tomorrow im returning the dress. :) and hopefully not spending any more money. i wont even let myself go in any store.

Sun, 10 May 2009 03:59:07 GMT

I did go to Dunkin donuts, wawa twice, and the limited today.
but that was before i started officially tracking.

Orange Julius (before work) - 4.23
Taco Bell (during Work)- 2.43

Daily Totals: 6.66

Tomorrow to KOP to return my perfect dress.

Sat, 09 May 2009 19:31:55 GMT

This journal has been revamped to be my new official side-kick to helping me curb my spending habits.

The first order of business: tomorrow morning I will go to King of Prussia mall and return the 70 dollar dress I bought at the Limited. If I save during the summer, I can spend money at the end of the summer for back to college clothes.

I am also applying for a new job so that I can make more money.

Dinner tonight at Taco bell will be 4 dollars.

Then on Wednesday I will get my Car washed.

I can't spend more than 20 dollars on food until Thursday. Starting tonight.

Fri, 08 May 2009 00:30:29 GMT

ive only been alone for a few hours but i think i've dipped into a chronic depression

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 05:13:19 GMT

Dear Diary,

Somebody save me.

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 00:01:06 GMT

I hate the feeling that i've lost all my innocence. When i look at old pictures of myself, even from a year ago, i feel like i don't know the girl in them.

where did she go?

oh baby when they made me, they broke the mold

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 13:41:36 GMT

well, i figured id finally update.
i'm sorry that i'm prolly the worst LJ friend in the history of life. :/
even though i havent been commenting on all your recent entries, i'm here. i'm reading them.
well. im in a great mood today even though i have no real reason to be. im unprepared for all three classes that ihave today.
and i only have three because i didnt feel like getting out of bed soon enough to make it to my first class at 8:45.
it's my world civ class. which prolly makes me the worst history major ever for deliberately skipping one of the easiest classes this university offers.
not only am i unprepared for classes, but this breakfast im eating sucks. i made myself a great coffee in the caf, but i have kelloggs smart start in my backpack and im about to run over to the cafe in the class hall to pick up a brown sugar cinnamon before my social psych class. and maybe a grape soda because i love it.
i teach my very first REAL lesson in front of an actual high school class tomorrow.
im also not prepared for that.
as excited as i am for it, i feel like theyre going to attack me if i dont know the answer to a question. especially becaseu ive had two weeks to prepare for it.
its a lesson on mesoamerica with a focus on the hohokam and anasazi tribes. and its a freshmen class. predominantly black.
yeah, im going to get eaten alive.
im excited for the lesson that i have planned. the class reads from the text everyday so im going to not use the text at all.
im going to do a warmup activity, a group activity and a video! and only use a ten minute short fact lecture.
but yeah, i've barely read the information i need to so that i can actually talk about the hohokam tribes, and ive barely figured out what parts of the movie i want to show. plus i need to call the teacher today and make sure she knows to have the DVD player in the classroom or else im really fucked.

ew. some fucking girl just sat down next to me in the library (who kinda looks like a dude) and fucking moves my backpack without asking because she feels the needs to open up two seperate laptops in addition to the computer she is sitting out. ugh i wanna be like get the fuck out.

erik comes home from iraq in about two months. i have the feeling that we will be dating when he comes back. we talk everyday.

well. im sorry again for being the worst lj friend.
<3

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 04:06:00 GMT

i'm sorry i've been gone for so long.
can anybody hear me?

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 01:39:25 GMT

im alone on new years.
just like my birthday, christmas, thanksgiving.
fuck everyone.
and no, my parents being home doesnt count.- im still alone.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 03:09:39 GMT

i swear ill try to comment on all your entries. but its been hard lately.
i dont even know if its worth it to write.

i feel like nothing i ever do will ever be worth it.
everything has been so hard.
i've decided to see a therapist instead of a psychiatrist.

can someone please start making sense? and beg the lord for accidents.

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 23:28:54 GMT

well, after two long days of driving from south florida to Immaculata in Pennsylvania....im home.
i am back at school and pumped for it to start. i already have my job! i got transferred to an Express in a mall five minutes from my dorm.
i love it.
its a bit slow here because upper classmen havent moved back yet. (i moved in early bc i had a two day drive and didnt want to do it during the weekend.) but they move back tomorrow...
and tomorrow i have the second first day of my job :) this store is at a different level then my last one so i have to learn how theyre different and all that stuff
but i work 7 hours tomorrow.
and of course, my biggest question is....what am i going to wear?!?!
:D
everything else has been going ok...if you count my mom and i fighting a lot during the trip and me telling her i wont call her til thanksgiving and her telling me that i make her cry herself to sleep every night.
yeah real mother daughter bonding. :-/
my mom offered for me to find a therapist that she will pay for....im considering.
well there is not much else going on except that im still trying to keep positive as i start my sophomore year.
!

Thu, 29 May 2008 04:19:05 GMT

ryan and i broke up for like a few days.
but then i changed how high maintenance i was so i wouldnt lose him and he said if i kept acting like that, then there would be no reason to stay on a break.which made me happy.
<3
so we are back together and so wonderful and happy.
i really want to see him but i think we are doing really well.
we dont talk or text as much but its really helping me to be not so high maintenace and ive realized i dont want a guy who demands 24/7 attention.
i mean, i see my friends and i see how their bf's ask a million questions at what they do and ryan is just like "i dont give a fuck"
i love him. hes perfect.
sandi is here for the week.
and tomorrow night, thursday night (so tech tonight) me, sandi and my mom are seeing sex and the city the movie at the midnight viewing. eep i cant wait! ive waited so long for this!!!

hold on theres a hole in my heart everyone can see right through me

Tue, 20 May 2008 16:34:43 GMT

:) im happy
cept for the fact that im alone cuz baby is like 8 states away. :(
everything is good.
i got a job!
im working for express now in the boca town center mall
ive ben doing orientation.
yesterday i worked 12-230
and today i work from 6-8
theyre all short shifts because its orientation. todays module is tyring clothes on! :)
i get a legit schedule in the coming weeks.
i love working there i can wear cute shorts and tops and stuff :)
so yeah, thats it.
<3 comments.

ugh

Thu, 15 May 2008 15:43:29 GMT

well, im in Florida now.
sandi comes to visit in a week and a half.
im looking real hard for a job.
phil is calling me a whore.
i hang out down here with steve.
we smoke and walk on the beach a lot.
sex and the city movie comes out and i CANT WAIT to see it. mom and i are going with sandi to see it. mom and i book our tickets for it soon.
its beautiful down here.
i miss ryan a lot.
though i like hardly ever hear from him.

thats it. more to come.

she's got her halo and wings hidden under his eyes, but she's an angel for sure

Mon, 05 May 2008 14:47:09 GMT

:)
ok so i totally just aced my math exam that i just took. hopefully. i already have a 111% in that class, and i get an extra 20 points for going to class the otehr day so i should be getting an A in that class :)
i got a 96% on my italian oral exam last wednesday. today i need to do my theology project and read a chapter for my behavioral statistics exam.
ugh that exam is going to kill me.
im in the process of packing and cleaning my room because half of my stuff in colege goes into storage for the summer.
the rest (aka my computer, TV, DVD player and obnoxiously huge wardrobe) go into my car and me and my dad drive down to FL from pennsylvania on wed morning after my biology exam.
welcome to the drive from hell. i just hope that we will be making good time. my goal is to be near baltimore by noon and then in north caroline by 5 then south carolina before 11 pm.
i hope that it seems likely.
well, i gotta go. im in the library now and i have to go do my hours for april to hand into my boss today before she sends me an email complaining that she hasnt gotten them yet.
and i need to stop by my old roomates room to grab some things i lent her in the beginning of the year like hooks and bulletin boards.
lots of work to do today!!!
<3
ps- me and ryan are doing really well....and i leave in two days :(

i know we're not like them, couldnt be if we tried. Life on life's terms aint easy

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 15:04:51 GMT

the song Life on Life's Terms by Bedlight For Blue Eyes is stuck in my head.
i know sophia will appreciate that.

So I am in the library right now, working on my research paper that is due tomorrow.
i already made my two appointments to go to the writing center this afternoon at 530 and 730.
usually i wouldnt go but we are not allowed to hand in a paper before we go. :/
i email my teacher like every hour for her to proofread certain parts of my paper. she is helping me so much. but what is the point of going to the writing center if she alraedy is reading like every rough copy that i have? idk i guess i should atleast get a B on this paper. its like ten freaking pages. but i think that i will be able to make due with seven, which is the minimum requirement.

so with this paper, and the fact that my italian oral exam is on wednesday along with my italian written final exam is on friday, and that fact that i need to memorize 4 bio tests for my exam NEXT wed and study for my theology final and work on my theology final exam presentation AND i have a fundamentals and statistics on the SAME day a week from today basically means that i will be living in the library for the rest of my life....or atleast until i leave next wednesday morning with mt daddy.

the cheerleading squad went to wildwood. we had so much fun. two nights, one day at the pier, it was so much fun. i love those girls. and i got a spot on the squad again for next year. YAY! i knew id make it, my jumps are pretty awesome and i have killer stunting experience.
ill put wildwood pics up maybe tomorrow? if i have time.

ryan said he didnt know what he wanted when i asked him if he still wanted to be with me.
it really threw me off and made me sad. he said i take this relationship a lot more seriously then he does, so its not fair to me. i dont get it.
i think i got him at a week moment though because then last night he was all over me and kissing me and telling me he loved me and could not keep touching me and rubbing my back and stuff.
i just want us to enjoy what we have now.
he said the minute he gets money this summer he will book his plane ticket so hopefully i will see him in the middle of june which would be AWESOME! ill miss him :) hes so wonderful and makes me so happy.
and yesterday was our one month. which neither of us noticed, but im about to leave the library to go wake him up so i think ill tell him then :)

im actually in a really good mood despite this paper because right now im sitting at my favorite spot in the entire library.
it looks out over all of valley forge. its so beautiful. but it fucking is cloudy as shit right now which blows. i thought the weather was supposed to get nicer?
:(

love you all.

right off the edge she'll walk

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 02:30:53 GMT

im going to Costa Rica for spring break of 09
its not definitely official but my mom and dad said that they will let me go and will give me the 95 dollar deposit.
its an enviromental expedition to costa rica hosted by the school.
fifteen people.
this is the awesome shit ill be doing:

zipline through the jungle.
see giant crocadiles.
watch nesting sea turtles
re-nest turtles
clean up pacific coast beaches
visit tribes
see one of the worlds most active volcanoes.
butterfly farms
rain forests
white water rafting
help with reforestation
help out with the scarlet macaw project

HOW AWESOME IS THIS?!?! i emailed the nun who is running it. and she said there is still room in the program.
she also said shed love me to go cuz she knows me and that its def a once in a lifetime oppurtunity.
and im siezing it!

what you think?

the sadie hawkins dance in my khaki pants

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 18:06:08 GMT

so im in a really pissed off mood. its private because even though ryan doesnt read this anymore there is always that chance.
so usually me and ryan hang out in the quad. the quad is chad and moser's room.
the other people are dinneen, pep, moo and tyrell. (they all go by their last names cept chad)
well, me and chad get along because im hooking him up with my best friend sophia.
pep likes me because i smoke with him and hes a nice guy overall.
moser doesnt hate anyone.
tyrell likes me cause i met him in the summer and hes chiil and thinks im chill and we have taken all the same bio this entire year.
BUT dinneen and moo fucking hate me and give ryan so much shit about me.
dinneen has been being an immature asshole to everyone. he barely speaks and like commands that no one sits where he wants to sit and that no one can talk if he is watching tv in the quad. ITS NOT EVEN HIS ROOM.
but i barely saw ryan at all yesterday and i didnt see him at all today until a late lunch. and i barely saw him sunday or monday.
im not complaining, but basically for the amount of time we usually spend with each other, we really havnt been spending the past few days together AT ALL.
SOoooo last night before i went to cheer tryouts, i stopped by the quad to see him. he was watching the flyers game with moo and dinneen and tyrell.
so i gave him a couple kisses on the cheek and was playing with his hair. i wasnt talking to him at all, i was just watching the game. the last five minutes before i left i ended up in his lap(where he usually puts me) and just stoked his knee or something like that.
i knew i wasnt sleeping with him that night (cuz i slept in sponge curlers) so i slipped my tongue in his mouth for HALF A SECOND as i left. cuz i knew i was not going to have the chance to give him my usual amazing good night kiss.
well, today, being the good friend that he is, chad came up to me during lunch when i was eating with holly, pep and tyrell.
he told me that i needed to ease up on making out with ryan because dinneen and moo were bitching. he said he personally didnt care and wasnt there, but he bet that they were blowing it out of proportion.
i told him that i was fucking done with hanging out in the quad and now i avoid dinneen like the plague because im so tired of his bullshit.
chad agreed with me competely and pep didnt say anything. i like how he stays out of other peoples affairs even if dinneen and pep are room mates.
tyrell said he saw my point.

well, when i talked to ryan, he agrred with them.he told me how much he hated PDAs. OMG IT WAS A HALF SECOND KISS! OMG grow up! you couldnt even tell that there was any tongue at all. so now im just pissy about it.
and fuck going to the quad.

ok so i just had to vent.
do i have a right to be pissy about this whole situation?

so maybe i do, but that shouldnt affect your life anymore.and ill let you get the best of me

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 23:06:34 GMT

so i dont want to update on everything.
but yesterday ryan broke up with me. i dont know why.
he said we had too diferent personalities. but now we're back together?
i dont get it. but it hurt so bad so im just happy its ok now. i guess he had a weak moment?
i hate it. its so fucked up. and i still hate him for it. but w/e
ill just update with random pics from this semester cuz im bored.

my hair looks awful in this pic, but w/e this is me and my sister (yeah i know shes gorjis) at my nana's funeral

me and ryan in baltimore (btw these pics are not in chronological order) ps im sitting in this pic, not squatting

my weekend with my best friend sarah bear

idk if i like the way i look in this pic or not. its me and sarah bear

me and my friend katie from cheerleadingi love this pic

thats it! break my heart, im getting worried!
ps- cheerleading evals are tonight and im soooo tired. we wont be done til ten and idk if i can make it! plus i have bio hw to do.

i didnt say i was powerful, i said i was a wizard

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:14:55 GMT

um. lets update.
just got off the phone with sophia. be strong girl.
me and ryan's hamsters are doing well. we separated them today, they have their own happy lil tanks. ill take pics cuz theyre ADORABLE
friday me and ryan went to baltimore. pics to come. i promise. i got sick and was at like deaths door. so i passed out and ryan and my sister bonded all night.
sat i was late to the dance tech rehearsal. but we got shirts! we practiced all day, then performed in the Chester County Dance festival. hosted by my school. we did a modern/ballet piece to Beethovens overture. LOVED it. we did well, and i did all the girls makeup. they loved it and ryan said we did well. and then me and ryan walked around campus with my grandparents who came to visit.
today me and ryan went to Lancaster where he lives and i met his parents and sister. it was really entertaining. they are so funny. i hoped they liked me! i laughed a lot cuz they rip on ryan a lot <3
that was quick. pics in the next post hopefully

back in school they never taught us what we needed to know like how to deal with despair

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 15:22:38 GMT

once again im in Ryans room . big surprise huh?
yesterday, me and ryan went to the pet store. and he bought me a hamster!!!!!!!!
he bought himself one too but he also bought allllll the shit for it. (tech i paid for mine, so if we ever break up, i still get to keep her if he doesnt kill her first jk he wouldnt do that)
so we have the cutest lil hamsters. his is black and white spotted and he named it Dora cuz whenever shes out of her cage she explores like a madwoman, and i named mine Tansy because its the lil character in the book im currently reading. mine is this light tan/dirty cream colored with black racing stripes like behind her earts. they are the cutest things ever and right now Tansy is running around me on the floor in her little pink ball. ryan is at his exs science class. <3
thats all that has been going on. i have a few busy weekendds coming up.
tomorrow me and Ryan are driving down to baltimore to spend a night with my sister
and sat is my Dance festival at school that im doing some ballet thing in.
and sunday me and ryan are going to Lancaster to meet his family! im so excited but i still dont know what i will be wearing.
ill of course be posting pics of my lil hamster family. <3 comment <3
break my heart, where are you?

ive got some friends, some that i hardly know-we've had some times i wouldnt trade for the world

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 03:28:34 GMT

ok so im posting this song because i dont think that i will ever get sick of it.
im in ryan's room on his laptop. he's in the quad with his best friend kyle.
so much is wrong with me and i cant talk to anyone about it.
thats why i have my LJ. ive been so depressed and idk why.
i told ryan that this morning after the cheer thing i wanted to cut myself. i didnt. but i wanted to.
and whenever i cut, im never erally aware that im doing it, so its weird that i was legit thinking about it.
i think that something is just internally stressing me out. cuz thats whenever i cut.
but whats wrong? why am i so sad? my life is so perfect. my classes are going well, i just saw my sister, i have a perfect boyfriend, i have amazing friends that would do anything for me. these inclde the cheerleaders and all of my guy friends that i hang out with in the quad.
what is wrong with me? whenever im alone for any sort of period of time, i get quiet and reserved (even though im alone). i feel like doing nothing. just rolling up in a ball and crying forever. i just want to hold mutsey (my stuffed dog that is always with me wherever i sleep) and cry and be young again.
April is national suicide month. im NOT saying that i want to kill myself, im just saying it all makes sense right now cuz now im so depressed. so apparently it all makes sense. idk.
ryan and his friend just came in. i guess i should stop typing.
i posted THREE times today. this being the third.

ok- ill post the lyrics now.
am i loud and clear? or am i breaking up?
am i still your charm? or am i just bad luck?
are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?
ill show you mine if you show me yours first-
lets compare scars, ill tell you who's is worse.
lets unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words.
we live on front porches and swing life away.
we get by just fine on minimum wage.
if love is a labor ill slave til the end.
i wont cross these streets until you hold my hand.
ive been here so long that its time to move.
the winter is so cold summer is over too soon.
lets pack our bags and settle down where pal trees grow.
ive got some friends some that i hardly know.
we've had some times i wouldnt trade for the world.
we chase these days down with talks of places we will go.
we live on front porches and swing life away.
we get by just fine on minimum wage.
if love is a labor ill slave til the end.
i wont cross these streets til you hold my hand.
till you hold my hand.
ill show you mine if you show me yours first.
lets compare scars, ill tell you who's is worse.
--repeat chorus.

so thats it. that song i think will always explain how i feel about my life.
ryan is in the room and i feel like im so far away from him. i feel like im all alone in here still.
i was sitting here in the dark until he came in.
just the light of the lap top.
what is wrong with me?
am i just stressed?
but about what?
life seems so perfect now.
i need help.
and i dont want to start cutting again cuz i dont want to full out go back to rehab again.

i feel so alone.and i have so much to be happy for right now.
by the way, i dont know if i said this, but the song is called swing life away by the band Rise Against.
this song, more than any other, i tell everyone to download and listen to on repeat.
its slower and acoustic. and wonderful- the album is Siren Song Of the counter Culture

i want to just be emo and angsty and say i hate my life, but its not true. i love my lief so much.
maybe i should go now and socialize and get to know ryans friend kyle cuz he will be living with ryan next year, and ill be in ryans room a lot, so i should get on his side now.

:(
i have a feeling that i will be venting a lot in here for the next couple of days.

tear away these faces we hide behind, cutting through the airwaves open up our minds

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 18:34:13 GMT

song in subject: Faces
Band- Scary Kids Scaring Kids

um so public entry-
yesterday IU had no classes so me and ryan slept in til he went to work at 9. i stayed in his bed all morning on his laptop. he left me the key and 20 dollars :)
i cleaned a bit of his room and did all his laundry. i love him.
i ate lunch by myself in the caf and then met him at work (he works at PacSun in the mall) so i met for lunch. he bought me a huge cookie to eat :)
then i talked to bear on the phone and shopped. bought a scarf at H&M for 5 bucks.
returned the hot pink pants a bought cuz i forgot i needed the money to go food shopping. it made me sad. i loved those pants.
ryan is so cute- he forced me to go into pacsun to see a dress he thought would look great on me. hes so amazing.
then he met me back in my room, we chilled, went food shopping. where i boguht like two of everything so that i have a stock of food in his room lol cuz im there more than my own damn room. (but we fixed that cuz he agreed to sleep with me in MY bed every now and then and that made me so happy cuz i really miss my bed. so hopefully tomorrow night ill have my perfect bed back.
then i went to dinner and ate with some friends, but i was SO TIRED. i went back to Marian (ryan's dorm building) and passed the fuck out. i was in a fucking coma. i passed out in his bed at 7pm and woke up a lil after 11. i was like WTF.
so him and i went back to my room, grabbed a few things, and then we played magic. he is in the process of teaching me how to play Magic. (you know, that card game?) and YES i know im dating a complete dork. but i love him so much. Magic is like his fave thing ever and he plays at tournaments so clearly im his GF so i MUST know how to play as well. lololol.

so today i had my cheerleader duties and had to wake at 8 (but its ok cuz ryan had to wake at 8 for a 6 hr class he had to do today) i had to be at Alumnae hall at 9 to help host accepted students day for all incoming freshmen. so i had to put my practice uniform on and where my big bow in my hair and smile and direct people where to go and let people ask me questions. ive been on my ffet all day. IM SO TIRED. and yeah, i know i cant spell. lol
tonight my sis is coming up from baltimore. and then me and ryan and his friend kyle from home (who is coming here next year and rooming with ryan so the kid better like me cuz he will get to know me pretty darn welL) are going to get retarded hopefully. i need it. (not in a pothead sort of way)

<3<3<3

you're everything to me- no more as i wake from this perfect dream i'll escape from Eden's world

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 15:17:22 GMT

Listen to:
Band- Alesana
Song- Apology (remix from the recent album)

the song is catchy and ALWAYS in my head, and yes- its my emo bullshit. but i looove it. my subject line is a line from the song.

sooo im in the library right now, bored as anything. i just went to the writing center to get my paper looked at because im not allowed to hand the paper in until i have a signed sheet saying a tutor from the writing center has read and corrected it. that goes for everyone in the class. its a bit of a pain, but hey, atleast i can be lazy on my grammar and they will fix it for me :)
my paper was about recycling. i made it seem so melodramatic. i have lines in there that go like this: "Immaculata should easily be able to overcome the growing recycling problem that has become an epidemic throughout the world." and "By not recycling, we are hindering our own enviromental safety and the future of our precious mother earth....we have a responsibity to serve the enviroment" and my two favorites- "So i ask you, John Stafford, Dean of Students, to use your power to make a global difference ion this campus. Not only is this a plea from a concerned student, but a plea from all of the future generations that will wonder why we have clogged landfills and higher prices from non-recycled materials." and "Immaculata University can move forward in this ever-changing world and take a stand for mother earth."

haha my teacher is a wonderful sap so she will love all that dramatic bull. but i really love her. shes so awesome.

im seeing Josh today. i wonder how that will go. im going to write a locked entry later just for 'break my heart' to read so we can discuss it.
its going to be weird to finally see josh again. apparently his hair is a lot longer and black now? he WOULD after we break up. but my current bf is so much cuter and the best ever. lol. i love how my problem with the last problem was that he was not affectionate at all, and Ryan is like seriously the mosty affectionate person ever and i love it and him so much. he always is nice to me and touches me and helps me do everything, and always wants to hold me and kiss me and lvoe me and tell me im beautiful and pretty and sexy, and everything that i want to hear, he tells me. i always feel like i am the only girl in the world with him and i have not felt that for a very long time. :) im so happy.

me and holly.....reconciled. i guess. she sat down at lunch with me yesterday and says " we need to talk" so we sopilled and i laid everything out and told her that i thought she was shorrible friend. she listened. the only thing she really never respinded to was when i told her she has never and will never make me a priority in her life.
i should ask her about that.
so things are back to normal.
my daily omellete at breakfast today was not that good :( it made me sad. maybe tomorrows will be better.

OMG PS- gross random fact of my life- ive been eating those chrystal lite candies like they were water and i had the WORST stomach cramps and lets say i spent a lot of time on the toilet. i didnt know why at first, but when i started eating them again last night, my stomach started cramping, so i read the ingredients and the first ingredient was "isomalt" i had never heard of it so i looked it up. its a sugar substitue that can cause sever gastric distress and diarea(idk how to spell that) when taken in large quantities (aka eating 1/4 the container in like a half hour) so i hate my life cuz i cant even eat delicious candy. lol

fun fact- me and ryan's sex life is banging...literally! hahahah omg im a dork. by now.